Saturday, January 30, 2010 |

Listening to this emo song. Its on my blog.

Have you ever felt sad, but don't know why? Its the worst feeling to experience. Because if you don't know what makes you cry, then how do you stop crying? So many things can make you feel freakin depressed.

Sometimes i don't know which part of my life makes me down and out... or is it everything that has happened in my life that forces me down on my knees. Lately, its been alot of small worries linked together to form one whole worry.

Have i been so over passionate that i didn't practise moderation? That now i'm feeling the full effects of being too into something? And even worse, being too into 2 things instead of 1.

Valentines day is just around the corner. whoopee...

For me, its nothing to celebrate. I don't have to tell you what V'day means to me. But just know that it contains one of my memories from last year. A physical one at that too. It was a good day that time, but being reminded of that good day makes me feel god-awful bad.

Trust me. I've let go of these stuff already. What's left is just memories. And every potential chance to see those memories in real life again just disappears just as it seems like it would come true.

This coming 7th febuary, i'll be singing my heart out for Buddhist Fellowship Youth's Friendship day celebration (supposed to be V'day by right...). Hope it gives me some kind of release.

For now, my main interest is in singing. Sometimes i sing out aloud to myself. People say that i sing beautifully. But that's besides the point... sometimes i just feel like singing to someone to just to a small audience who appreciates vocal talent.

Wish i can just come home to some place or someone i can love/care about.

Saving a life at 7:10 AM